Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Away from home
It's funny how being away from home can make one more pensive and deliberative. Perhaps it's due to the hectic conference schedule here, that leaves my brain minimal time and space for thought processing. Now that I've time to myself finally after a long crazy day, my brain is starting to process reality.
Many would think that being out of town for work is good, it's like a holiday. In fact, on some days, my day starts at 830am and ends at 1030pm or 11pm even. I'm not complaining as I do count it a blessing to be here, interacting with other music educators from over 74 nations. Just that perhaps being here, has raised many questions in my mind and with that, much uncertainty.
Someone once said that women like certainty. They like to know where they stand. But I guess that's quite true for most people, both male and female. Uncertainty brings on the "trust" question. How much do you trust God whilst threading in the unknown? How much do you believe that He is the author of your future and He will give you the best? In principle and theory that's always easy to answer. But God always gives us choices. And when faced with choices, I am sometimes stumped.
It's tough to go on life bothering about what others think and say of you. Bothering about their opinions and their comments. Sometimes it even seems as if being hardworking and responsible is a sin. You must have an ulterior motive of some sort. Or rather, if your agenda does not flow with mine, then you must be trying something funny. I strive to rid my mind of negative thoughts and feelings, and to continue to think the best of others. But honestly I find it hard. Guess it's my stubborn nature at work once again. People always say to trust what your heart says and that as long as you're true to yourself, you are ok. Maybe the question I'm facing is.... Am I really being true to myself?
I certainly do not want to leave the world being a jack of all trades, but a master of none...
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Daughter of God, songwriter, singer, pianist,
guitarist, amateur drummer, aspiring poet, ad-hoc painter, jazz lover, jewelry designer, friend, aunt agony, loves puffers
2005 THANKSGIVING
1. Good practicum school
2. Finally learning drums!
3. Nice colleagues
4. Passed my driving!
5. Got my fishtank finally!
6. Got an ibook and ipod free!
WORLDLY DESIRES
1. New Synthesizer
2. Drumset
3. Bicycle
4. South America Puffer
5. Chronicles of Narnia
RECOMMENDED BOOKS
1. The Jesus I never knew (Philip Yancey)
2. Where is God when it hurts (Philip Yancey)
3. Woman of destiny (Cindy Jacobs)
4. Hinds feet on high places (Classic)
5. Changes that heal (Henry Cloud)
6. The case for faith (Lee Strobel)
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Mere Christianity - C.S Lewis
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Life Story Designs
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Lord of the cross (Mp3/ Lyrics)
Take a step (Mp3/ Lyrics)
Faces (Mp3/ Lyrics)
He is God (Mp3/ Lyrics)
Eden (Mp3/ Lyrics)
Jesus is the answer (Mp3/ Lyrics)
Can I ask You (Mp3/ Lyrics)
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I wish you enough
The Shepherd's Heart
The sun will rise again
The closet
Shadows
A little bird
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